Desperate at heart

First Day of School

2008-01-03T02:04:00.000-08:00

Well...hmmmm.first day of school was kind of great our teachers also not bad kind okay....well first days are always okay and then on the 2nd day of school i found out that if the sec ones were better at us at netball they will change i felt it was like sooo unfair because the north zone is like on the 14 of janurary i think so because thats what they wrote on the paper saying that thats the first day of the north zone they can't join us with just a week of practice with us now can they???.....i find it unfair to the rest of us because we traind for almost a year and all of us were looking forward to the north zone...but if they take our place...sigh sigh.....maybe it moght be for the better for the team.......i hope im not taken out im happy with my position....ps...don;t take me wrong im not angry or upset with the decision im just confused why the sec 1's might take our positions....well never mind if its better for the team i don't mind being taken out myself or i don't think any other person in the team would really mind because we get to play for next year anyway if we don't make it this year......but i hope i don't get taken out because i love netball even if im not that good at it ..im happy....and i don't mind playing GS for the rest of the year.....man im happy i got this far.....and i'll practice my shooting so that i won't let down the team and try to remember all the tactics and all we've learned the past few months....if i make it to the north zone i hope i don't let the team down....hahas....you guys must be preety bored hearing me yakking and yakking all the way but don't worry im ending my lond long and boring speech here so you guys will feel relieved that she's finally stopped talking on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and onand ....well i'm doing it again arent i hahas......see now im like posting once a week im happy im able to do it hahas cheeze

:) Smiles
Danesha
The BIggEsT Fan of Cristiano Ronaldo and MANCHESTER UNITED that is hahas....

So called New Year Celebrations

2007-12-31T01:43:00.000-08:00

Have a happy new year...
hahas im celebrating the same way i've celebrated for the past 12 years at home watching the TV with my family thats all...well its a simple occassion for us..and i don't expect much....well.....some people go to the countdown party which is held all over the country like vivoCity hahas okay well have a great new year.......and make realistic resolutions okay alright hahas ....
Happy New Year everyone!!!:)

Try

2007-12-30T06:34:00.000-08:00

When you try alls possible......when you try to give up its not alwasy easy but its always possible to give up.....when you try to win you will fail buy only the people who continue to try will stay on track.....when you try its never impossible...when you try its not far....its always possible some wa or another if we try.....

Lifes been great i've finally got on the computer well im happy because i know i have to strive and try all my best if i don;t i will be letting not only myself everyone around me down... i wont do that because i like people to be happy not be sad because of me hahas most of my post are so emo ...........hahas okay then i still want to go back 2days ago and have fun again in Vivo City i had so much of a great time and in the previous post i had so much of errors in my spelling because i didn't check it wheni was using the internet on my phone hahas.....well the post previously had too photo the top one is the post i took in vivocity the one below is my cousin,hema and my other cousin, nadya and Suki Sushi ....that was the fist time i ate there....but it was great to eat with my uncles and aunts and cousins if your wondersing where were my mom and dad they were at Thai Express eating actually they went planned to eat steamboat at seoul garden but it was no longer there so they go and eat and ThaiExpress........hahas im dragging you about with my stories hahas.......okay well all i did today was study

Vivo city

2007-12-29T03:52:00.000-08:00

Yesterday i went to vivo city with my cousins natasha and hema aka didi ha has and my aunt we went there very fun we in and then we in and play in the water and them i got yet but not as yet as my cousin natasha ha ha she was soaking because she was swimming in the water ha has them we tried to get hema (ill call you that 4 a while because difficult to write aka all the time )into the water but she was too strong ahem after that natasha when to toys r us to play and i and hema when shopping well not really shopping because we just bought a wallet 4 my brother ha has them we wall around and did i 4 got to say that we ate sushiTeh that :-:-i enjoyed ha has i iac a great time and i have some of the rioto we took butt unt manu well basically i feel thats a friday well enjoyed ha gag

Mask

2007-12-26T04:15:00.000-08:00

Mask:..:
the joy of christmas Taught of something that we shouldnt trust people by looking how they treat us because its never the same how it is because people are like that . . . . Its natural instinct but its difficult to take in. . .0. .Ha has Im going on and on again ha has well in just been thinking about them ha ha

Christmas time people

2007-12-23T03:27:00.000-08:00

Its christmas time and its time 4 giving now im lying down on my bed and writing a clog post with my phone ha has too lazy to use the com i bought so many presents they re all under my familyS christmas tree and i feel so happy for no reason every one please be happy and please study were going to be secondary 2 and we need to study to the class we want to end up too :)i hope everyone who is mad at each other makes up to each other because think of the other people who wants to be happy ha has well have a great christ map ill be sure to write on christmas day on such a great day plaster a smile on even if it kills you ha has cheeros

Its never the end

2007-12-09T01:59:00.000-08:00

Hey Hey...well Im sooo happy because i don't know i just found out that i have so many great people around me and all i have been doing is sulking about what i don't have....no ....no no more of that dum nonsense well ill try to stop it but i can't assure a 100 % minus sign for that....hahas....well let me stop boring you.......

feel like SPACING HAHAS

wat the hell lah okay 4 get it have a great week
chou
feel like eating hor fun

Treasure the most important and regard rest less

2007-12-04T22:07:00.000-08:00

.....Ive noticed its time for me to make decisions in which who is important to me and who is not i know maybe some people might think its dumb to say such things when you have so many people you love differently...but its neccesary to understand your piorities and remember where they lie.....and when you do that you are being honest to yourself .....
I'm doing this because lifes too short to waste it with people who don't take your opinion of YOU very seriously itself than whats the point in talking t them or even wasting even one nano second of your time with them its jsut not worth it.....
Remember some people die young and they don't really get to enjoy life with people they love.....well this came to me when my mothers friend died when in a attachment(i think) in new york she died when she had 3 kids who deeply miss her......se had no one beside her when she died..........this gave me a wake up call to stop wasting time on uneccery things.........Spend time with everyone you love to make their life worthwhile and ofcourse yours tooo which is the ultimate point in this

People are born.......they become kids...they become teens....they become adults...they become Wise Men....They Die....and hopefully come back to life

Treasure alll when you can.....
--------Divya----------
------loves------
---family-----

WHAT A DAY

2007-11-20T00:27:00.000-08:00

Well........My week has been long great and exciting made by many people!.......Firstly everyone (meaning my family...grand ma ...cuzzies.....uncles....etc) Went to ThaiExpress to eat because my cuzzies , hema and my brother , darryls birhtday so i guess w went to celebrate i ordered sweet and sour fish that was nice than i ate fried squid(i think thats what you call iit) WHICH WAS MOUTH SAVOURING.....then....i drank sour plum juice....not bad actually.....than the manager i guess came in an emptied a table and then let his tounge slipped and say you can put the birhtday cake there....than wee all laughed because we wanted it to be a secret....hahas that was great......than my cuzzie received all her presents and i forgot mine well.....i gave her the next day.....then i stayed over at my grandmothers place and had a ball with my cousin and my other bro went to my younger cousins house to stay and i know he had a great fun
well immmm sooooo glad that i went and i also made a cake that was hard as rock and soooooooooo sweet hahas........i stayed over ...and i know i had fun sooo FUNNNNN

DIDI wanna let you know that your the best i love you for who you are and have fun but be safe in thailand hping to see you soon....maybe w should go out because i can't stay a minute at home because im soooooo bored dead bored....so have a good trip and help people kaes??

hope to hear from you

Loves,

Divya aka Danesha

;) Smiles

Smiles were meant to be received by the person near and dear..

Muaks

hahas!!

November Month

2007-11-11T16:45:00.001-08:00

Well this month were all going to have alot to do right?
Well i am i have to Go 4 netball.......go 4 Slc.....Study(Don't ask me why)
............go 4 my organ class.............ofcourse GO OUT......\

Well before i carry on im sorry i can't come with you guys to the Game Plan i just have no mood for it im really between sad and dam bored!!! And Sorry for being rude......hahas i didn't know i was rude until i sent the message sorry you have got to understand i talk without thinking sometimes and then regret later although sometimes it might just be too late..................sigh...........sigh .....hahas

............you know what im not gonna feel so mood out because of something im going to be happy to all around me even if it kills mee too.....because i dun wana make people around me feel sad because its in my nature to make people laugh with my lame jokes because thats me!!!! hahas(im saying this toooo much)

..................................November what can i say has some happy things to birthdays(Happy Birthday darryl And happy birthday Hema(DIDI).........hahas....instead of getting ready for netball im crappping here while riting lame jokes again!
Hahas TODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDLESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS 4................Now

Day after Deepavali

2007-11-08T18:33:00.000-08:00

Hi,

Today is a day after deepavali. Yesterday was mainly eating, eating and eating....i went to my grandmas house for the reunion because its always like that we meet at my grandmothers house for deepavali!! hahas....but this time it was different because i did not **** ***(this is not a bad word is just sumthing for you to guess about) hahas!!!! Today i also eat like mad i think i might be going to buy my books........Basically im happy with everything!!

And i thought about sumthing why am i acting like sumone im not and why not act like me ME!! hahas still thinking.......... hahas...well i keep sayig hahas for like no reason okay i gotta go see ya

When things are near you there isnt a need to be insecure

2007-10-31T03:40:00.000-07:00

Well my advice for you is
When things and people you love are near you i see no need to be insecure!

Well i have to understand that first because i need to get it in my head in situations like this because this is who i am.....ive noticed in all my life ive been insecure about everything and i think i need to chill because its creating a big hole in my heart!!! SIGH

Let me give you big run throgh of what happened in my life during the long period i didnt write well mr shafee told me a very happy but weird news! Because i did not expect it i don't really want to write about what it is because most of the people still don't know and some people wouldn't like me having it SO im not going to say it.....those who know most probably close friends or evesdroppers.....dun tell anyone till they know about it from someone else from this 2 categories because then i know your trustworthy or EVESDROPPER who is trustworthy hahas!!
Then i went for a leadership course with the other leaders....from 1e1 would be anvis, Sze yan, Angelina and me !! OMG!!! the whole talk was boring but yet enriching!!! Angelina OMG hugged me!!! then i was like OMG how could have done that!!! haHas just joking angelina no offence.... but please never do that again or i will copy wat anna said and i will slap you but no offence!!
Then i later went on a trip to genting highlands well it was FUN but we drove there so we took like 12 hours to go there!!!! I went on this vertical ride with my dad that went up slowly and then from a very tall height plunge down ! I was damn scared my dad was laughing hahas.....well when i havetime i will upload the pictures to show you how scared i was.....Then we went to the arcade and spent Rm 100 on the first day itself i and my 6 year old brother and my dad and my mom were like so addicted to it hahas.....then we went to play this game that you had to throw basketballs at this net and everything that went in was given a point....we earned about 600 points for both the days!!!
We stayed in a hotel called the first world hotel the rooms were okay but the toilets were dam small then i ask my dad why we didnt get another hotel he said the rest all FULLY BOOKED and i went 2 days before the school holidays how can they be booked!!! does that mean everyone went 2 days before the school holidays?
Hahas then we were on our way back home it felt as if we stopped for every 1Km to eat the local dishes!! I and my younger bro also ate alot of chewing gum and bubble gum! i also found ou that we used to have a fast food named A&W although we dont have it anymore i have to say their root beer float was very filling and delicious their corny dog oso not bad but can be better!
We bought a spinning top from there !!
We had alot of fun
Then on monday i went back to school for netball well it was tiring !!! although we only ran 1.6 on that day!!! Then i went to collect my report book from Mrs You....that reminds me mr shafee told me to tell all SLC member that 20th november must come back to organise everything for the next day when the japanese student were visiting!!
Well thats all to sum up all my days i had fUN like my new blogskin!!!!!!!

TIme to celebrate because its all over

2007-10-12T02:40:00.000-07:00

ITS FINALLY OVER THE GRUELING MOMENTS OF STRESS AND THE EXAM PAPERS ARE FINALLY OVER MAKE ROOM FOR SLOUCHING, WASTING TIME BY THE HOURS AND FAT STUDENTS WALKING DOWN THE STREETS DUE TO THE OVER CONSUMPTION OF FATTY FOOD!!!

HAHAS
Yes you've guessed it exams are over bring in the bag of chips and a can of coke because its time for ultimate slacking of te century!!! HAHAs you i bet all around the world a students mos fear is failing examination or not doing what people expect you to get.......well its all the same no difference for everyone......Yesterday i , Anna, Xin Min, Roxxane, Chun Yen and last but not least you hong went to go and see Balls of Fury hey guys the movies not what you are thinking about its more decent and sensible and HILARIOUS 2 thumbs up to balls of fury and i think the best actor is the Master as he's so stupid yet clever!!
Haha then bought present for Anvis and i wanted to buy for my cousin, Natasha this cute dog for her birthday but i was short of cash and HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY FROM MEE TO YOU tasha!!!! hahas i think were going to her house tommorow!!
Man i love no exams i can to do anything i want but this last till i get my results back you knwo good things never last i think there is a saying on this too........HAHAS..........Anvis Hope you like what we gave you.......And you hong happy advance birthday for this sunday!!

Going to eat potato chips and drink coke and GROW FATTTTTT

DIvya!!!!!!!!!

LUV all my friends and family

OO.....Exams are near people

2007-09-26T01:06:00.000-07:00

Hiessss.......................................Mua here again haha I KNOW I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGING but i had to study all those tall books and please all those tall people(dunno whether i will till i take but i hope i will) To all those taking End of the year right now best of luck...to all those taking PSLE right now STOP SLACKING this isnt playtime!! To all those due to take O LEVELS GOOD LUCK AND KEEP UP WITH THE REST............:) To all those like myself stop blogging and get that nose of yours in a educational book that is good TVS not coming out for the examinations.........For people who hate studying just chill and wait 4 the report card because im sure you are going to love what you see aint i right?? For all those like myself Good Luck(Self praise sorry haha DUN FOLO ME ITS NOT GOOD)
To all 1E1- my friends = people i dun really like(Arent you happy were in a short while leaving EACH other well i am !!!!)

And sorry for not putting other people in to my links just dont have the time...after exams i will
Sorry Julia i will after exams and Si han i will reLink you when i have the time kaes???

AND ANNA MAKE A BLOG SAME TO YOU XIN MIN ( HAHAS just for fun)

No matter who you are good luck

CHEESE YOU LATER
Divya Danesha

each day wif friends are both treasured and shared

2007-09-13T00:00:00.001-07:00

Heres a little message to my friends and family;
Friends:i might not have known you long but i trust you if i speak and laugh with you that means i trust you.....its my way of saying your a good friend.....i might go into my world sumtimes and go crazi sumtimes but thanks for being with me standing side by side wif me....i might tease you and laugh but i mean it in a positive way i dont mean it in a way that you feel hurt.....if i tease you i trust you will take it the right way.....your there always there...just for me.....:) your the best....i might be moody and angry sumtimes......stick wif me because i do have anger and i do have tantrums i mean im a human being too....HAHA.....thanks for all that this is just sumthings that i have to thank you for but there are more....more to tell you but i can never right to you how much you mean to me.....Smiles.....cum to schl to see you guys but i also want to study that is.....hehe
Yours lovingly,
Divya or if you know me as (Danesha)

Cousins: Thanks for staying strong at all odds and at all times.....remember life has up and downs and sumtimes we just have to admit that we need to change.....hear negative comments brush it off.....you musn't care......sum people are just PASSING CLOUD who are just there meaning they move by fast....you guys have to stay positive......Special thanks and mention to Hema (my cousin) for staying there for me and the bday card and well everytthing she has aver done for me...........to all the rest i know you wont see this but i just want to say thanks to you guys.....
Your lovingly,
Divya or you may know me as (Danesha)

Family: this includes my uncle aunty and everybody from my family.......its nice knowing your there for me when i need you because you have always been....sumone i can rely on someone to catch me when i fall ....my big trampoline.... my big ballloon......we may not see each other often but i know ull be there for me .....when i rite this im serious dead serious......without you life has no meaning....so smiles..
Your lovingly,
Divya or you may know me as (Danesha)

sum advice from me

each day spent fruitfully is each minute learnt

Teachers Day Celebrations......

2007-09-04T20:07:00.000-07:00

Hey.....i know its long since i blogged.........alot of things has happened that im too lazi to blog about but i can blog about my teachers day celebration.....Bowen's one rocked but there was one part where i didn't know what the guy was singing.....sigh but at least he tried....the coucillors singing was nice to hear their voices were nice too.....All the teachers were happy and all the student were happy too.....Haix its been a great year and i will strive to become eight in class in end of the year but wait i havent told you i have become number 15 in class YAY....im so happy because i improved but i know i should't relax....i know im boring you with my crap....so sorry

Im Happy about:My results......My Extra Best Friends.......I Rocking Life.......My Pri School....How much i miss my pri schl life and My teacher and Family(That Includes everyone that i care about that much )
Things im not hapy about:That i didnt try my best in this exam i could have done better....That Pri SChl BACKSTABBER who is the best drama queen if you know my pri schl life you would understand......That im not happy with my results....
Things i love about my life: Firstly My Parents .....Than Avinesh(My brother).....Than Hema(My cousin U ROCK).....My Brother(Viknesh try harder).....Ashwini(My Cousins...Smiles).....My Uncles And Aunties(Stay Cool....:) ) ......Jesse mccartney(IM RIGHT HERE).....Anna(My close friend.....ROCK ON).....Xin Min(Gd Friend....Stay Blur...hehe)......Anvis(Friend....Stay Cute).....Kezia(Smiles and u can do better)......Rest Of my gd friends(Stop listening to my crap or you will go bonkus)......Hui Shuang(Stay Crappy).....SI HAN(3.2's waiting for us).......Thats about it.................

See YA

A new skin

2007-08-13T23:19:00.000-07:00

well i dunno why did this but i felt as if my blog needs a make over a new change and once i saw this skin i wanted this.....i like the snowflakes and hear my songs i changed some songs mostly added new ones......welll the happy toilet or should i say the sad toilet seems to be a total disaster oh why couldn't we have gotten 1e3 or 1e2-(minus)shivashanker?......sigh i would even prefer 1e4 .......but i don;t know anyone from there....oh my why cindry does your class have to be so noisy and not cooperative........sigh and then Shi min got angry sigh i heard my name and wanted to know why she said my name.....and when i ask her she told me some thing i didn't understand so i thought maybe the rest of the class could so i told them to listen to her and then she tell me that she don't wanna say.....if you were angry with me well i am sorry.....but please i have gone through evnough to go begging on someone's feet for friend ship.....oh well....let me stop that crap about me.....today in netball i and anna Crap like hell...i dunno i had the sudden inspiration to talk about homasapiens and said im from a homosapien family and started laughing then anna laugh then i go and Ask si han and hui Shuang.......gosh.....man i am going for the 5 nations Netball competition....WOO HOOO......Anna smile more you look kind of sad now days sigh haha ok then i'll try to write tomolo

A brand new day dosent need a new beginning

2007-08-06T23:33:00.000-07:00

HEY.......Long time neva write well i just had my exams and i liked my science.....i guess i'll do well because well I JUST KNOW.....hehe.....can't tell you a secret if your in 1e1 already you would already know scared to write then later sum people go and tell scared.....woo hooo.......well.............i dunno what i'm so happy about maybe what she told me.....wah......ok thanks shi min for giving me present:) it meant sumthing to me.....sigh dun wanna go on school holiday so dam boring sia.........man......wait a minute...........wha yes i dun wanna go.....well......if you interested in anything thats happening in my life i love you.......if your interested in my pics muaks to you(not les)If your not interested I love you haha this is because

WOO HOOO MY BDAY

2007-08-02T02:45:00.000-07:00

i like this its like i'm in hollywood wif jesse mccartney!

look soo hideous in that photo(DUN COMMENT)

Happi bday to me....happi bday to me .....happi bday to DIVYA.........happi bday to me.....thankz to all who said happi bday to me!!!!!!!!!!! HEMA.....I LOVE U.......u really made me cry i dunno why i read it then tears came down....haha than i dab.....u really made my day.....ANNA thanks for being the 4th person to tell me happi bday.....u made my day tooo.....thankz to all....even if i didn't mention u .....ur still there u my heart.......I LOVE U GUYS......im so bursting wif energy today!!!!!.....I"VE GOT A $eacret!!!!!!!!!!!HAHA I GOT GOLD FOR NAFPHA so happy..........than wooo hooo i Love life!!!! My immediate family:My Family+Hema+friends+GRADES=to my LIFE

haha going crazi......anna i'll post pics soon i see which 1 i wanna put than i put in K???

wee..................

2007-07-18T23:40:00.000-07:00

Ok.......well...i'm so called back together with her......but i won't be close with her.........she'll just be friends.....she has hers and i have mine.......i dun mean this to hurt you but this is what i decided....wel.....my life gone smooth.....netball was fun wif anna......hehe play lah......but coach was angry....when we played the game!!!

so when life give u lemons u make lemonade.....hehe

What happened......

2007-07-12T23:26:00.001-07:00

Ha......today really was bad....hey kezia can i ask u something.....during DnT that was my seat wasn't it.....how could you have just given my seat away without asking me first...it was for both of us to decide it wasn't it not for you to make decisions without asking whether i agree with it first...omg....how can u.....of all people.....be so selfish?This was for both of us to decide instead you made your own decision......in your blog you said you hated selfish people.....do you hate yourself.....if your trying to make me feel alone its not working.......i have confidence and i have other friends beside you......but i want to ask you a question...after showing me such an atitiude why do you even bothere to come and try to talk to me after knowing it will never be the same?Was that your idea if it wasn'ti', sorry about the scolding i should be scolding the people to tell you to this but its stillyour fault why did you listen to them anyway....if it wasn't that is if it was yours i can't forgive you.....its over if thats the attitude your going to show me!I'm sick of that way we treat each other it seems we cannot be the same anymore.........maybe because were two different people and not menat to be together maybe its just faith....maybe its just us trying to tell each other we don't belong as friends and not even more good friends.....maybe it was too early for us to have decided that we are gd friends maybe its just some people are between us!

My BIrthday Timer

2007-07-12T23:25:00.001-07:00

i need time

2007-07-12T03:09:00.000-07:00

i don't know people advise me no to go back to you....i'm scared to look in your eyes...the eyes of a friend...because it reminds me tooo much.....like today for history...we went in different groups because we knew..i wouldn't work.....i look at you i know.........i won't say sorry because i don't think its my fault........its clear isn't it......were both afraid of saying sorry to each other because were afraid.....its neither of our faults...its because we have friends and we want to be with each other.....i know....it difficult.....i want to go with eunice all (now)....but....i love shi min , xin Min, Anna as a friend its difficult......u have ur friends and i have mine......i dun mix wif ur friends and you dun mix with mine.......u always partner aisha so i thought maybe you would understand that i wanted to partner Shi Min.....The way you didn't understand pissed me of..........i waited for you kezia......i followed......when i told you i had to go home....u didn't respect my decision u forced me to stay with you!.....you know how i feel?.......u never cared! I trusted that you would but u didn't i was pissed of then but i said to my self never mind........am i for show....nithing a person to follow behind you.....a servent.........?i always thought u would be a gd friend but it seems my calculations are wrong yes i read your blog.....i saw you missed me(thats what i thought it was about) so do i.....but i................just wanna be alone and figure out my gd friends....or at least friends!......

'My miracles and me.........need help'

2007-07-10T01:45:00.000-07:00

Its over.......i dun want to go back there again.....hey it's over...find a new friend to replace me....its over.....i'll not come back.....i'm not someone you can shelve as you please with your moods.....its over....that chapter that we were friends....its over.....the time we spent together as friends.......its over....stop trying.....i won't be there......its over.....that sapce you used to shelve me is empty.......its over....time has took its place......its over.....the time has gone away....please stop trying gets me more angrier.....
asking myself why i stood for your nonsese....u a friend...ha.....u talk abot people behind ur bak even ur so called good friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....i want to go away from you....consider me gone!!!!!!

my dayz

2007-07-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

i'm so happy.....she gave me advice and i used it now i have new great friends....who all understand how it feels to be neglected.....i'm so happy...now i'm with....kezia.....anna....shi min and last but not least Xin Min....i love their company! They are always soo fun that i want to be with them all the time.....Yay....I love to disturb anna and all of them are my best friends maybe saying that its too early but i think i'm confident....

p.s....sometimes i want to change the people i want to be partners with....and i hope my friends respect them because i try to too.......i'm not saying i don't want to be with you its just sometimes i want to be with some other people and i want you to respect my decision not show me atitude!
But i'm sorry if i hurt you today

tommorow also very lucky day 07-07-07

Tomorrow got live earth ton

some pics with my wacky cousins.....YAY

2007-07-01T18:35:00.000-07:00

well i crazi over these lights!

inspired by mua(yours truely)

ooooooo......bright lights!!!

Again my cousins!!!

Hey this was made with colour lights....it rockx rite??

hehe....sorry to my cuzzie for putting that photo....well i'm sorry

UnExpected but yet expected

2007-07-01T00:01:00.000-07:00

who knew the day that i thought was the worst day of my life turned out to be preety amazing....but it woudn't be like that if i weren't with my family.....that is.....i love then and i guess i mean know everyone loves their family but mine is one of a kind.....truly i wouldn't give them up even if you gave jesse mccartney and a million dollar to me.....they're one of a kind and mine...welll tecnically mine that is......things happen for a reason.....everything.....everything there's a reason....preety much i guess without them the day would have sucked....totally....but i missed out the class gathering....i wanted to go....but i couldn't.....sigh well i wanna know what happenend anything exciting worth hearing?

well back to my cousins...things are happening the way nobody planned....she charting a path i can't and nobody can follow....she can come back from the path she took or end of a nobody.......nothing is forever......these dayz life is showing me a smile.......a joy to wake up each day....to see my youger bro to see my mom and dad....to see life.....to see the pics in my room .......to see my cousins.....to love each day.....to savour love......to be free from stress....to be with everyone nobody can stop me from loving my family.......any by the way the last posts are not emo.....i started getting sudden inspirations!.......and i love it.....school rocks......last friday during last period i was totally dissapointed with my class especially the moniters if you read this i'm sorry....i writing this....but i'm sorry......you guys were suppose to look after the class not to discriminate a teacher and yet laugh with the class!.......its ur job as moniters!......if you don't do it the class won't!.......i'm not the only one.....moniter....are suppose to be role models!!!........sorry if i hurt u i'm just saying my view!

welll gotta go ciao......tata....toodlles......tooodle-loo....jai xian......bye....sayonara.....vannakam....selemat datang!

the dream

2007-06-28T02:23:00.000-07:00

i never thought i'll see again....that never aging smile and that never say die attitude....
but i did i saw her just the other day not soo far.....but no so near.....i left that place feeling content but he destroyed it.....she came and left just like a swaying leaf waiting is forever but she's a friend i need and a friend indeed

the need

2007-06-28T02:04:00.000-07:00

the need to be beside you has been diverted....
the dream of dreaming has gone......
the time or trust has faded.......
the wish to be near has befallen........
the harsh tears fed to the ground.....
a trickle of tear down the cheek.......
harsh words exchanged and soo hard to keep......
a mirror of lies and tears that couldn't be weaped.....
the waves of betrayal and solitary is kept......
the sway of ignorance is left unspoken......
but lives are changed to suit the world......
some gone away some gone far.......
but nothing is gone forever......
dreams are swapped for a new day to begin......
but all are lost is a friend indeed....

this is a poem i made please comment

Soo Long

2007-06-21T22:48:00.000-07:00

After so long i write......sigh......just well i'm buzi.......sigh well i gotta do sumthing i write another day a proper blog entry......comment and link me people

Horror

2007-06-15T00:15:00.000-07:00

Omg! Today i totally freaked......i was using the laptop in my room....i forgot i plugged in my wireless mouse... i went to play the organ and when i came back my mouse was moving on its own......i was so freaking shock...imagine it moving and clicking songs....i ran out of my room.....i went to my parents room which is next door.....i saw my brother playing with the mouse i was like sooooooo mad i went to my maid and started laughing like crazy.....oh man......how funny it was......and.....today i sweared to myself i wouldn't talk to my brothers as they always got me into trouble and i hate it so i told myself enough is enough your going to play organ go back into your room study while hearing music......and i did it....hope later i won't talk ti my brothers if not i just broke the swear i made to myself.....sigh how difficult can it bee..... i hope.......

*Hearing jesse mccartney.....any nice music tell me Thankz.......*
P.S i think i'm slowly leaving the depressed me.......i hope...

The coming Months

2007-06-13T22:33:00.000-07:00

The coming months has taught me many things about friends.......they never last how close they might get they never last.....thats what i was told before but i never believed it till now.....betrayal never seems near until it comes......i trusted so many people and they all let me down one way or another! I taught i should forget the betrayals that came to me in primary school life and trust my friends here more but we can't compromise to anything...we seem to be against each other....watever you suffered i suffered tooo.....i sometimes felt thati had to scream at you to let me have my say when you would go on and on about yourself!........i dunno....i loved your company and the way it was between us watever you do i alwaystold myself i had to give in sometimes but we were way out
There was something you weren't telling me i could sense it.....you wouldn't tell me.....i asked you over again because i cared and didn't want anything to spoil our relationship....but it was over we both knew it.... we were too far apart i knew it you knew it everyone around us knew it.....but some people were blocking our way.....making it hard too move.....they were idiots to interfere.....they knew it yet they wanted to be part of it......
They talked to me about it, i needed someone to talk tooo to spill out all my worried to leave myself...the part that wanted to be with you most behind so that i could carry on life again........but it was hard i knew it she knew it they all knew it ....they did nothing but stood behind the glass wall that seperated me from you....i was depressed with me with you...everything.....the only thing that gave me comfort would me family and cousins..nothing else felt good.....i longed to be at home ...near my CCA.....i wanted to be as far as possible from you
But we both know its going to be hard as we stuck to each other like glue although it was long ago and far from us.....i still know part of me still wants to be near you.......away from a close friend was so difficult.....hey i know i avoided a friend for 1.5 year but i had to talk to you to let you know i still am there to be as close as we were...to tell you nothing could tear us apart i don't understand why.......sigh.....although you still pour to me everything...its just not the same....
You need someone so do I.......but i know you won't be there when i need you.....or willl you........im not the same...different in character and different by heart.......i'm different i learnt my lesson ill never be close to anyone but my family and cousins because i know i can't rely on friends the term given to people who dont stay long.....sigh thankz for reading this blog entry i wrote this because i know i wanted her to know!!!.....im not me no longer you can forget the other part im different

2007-06-11T19:18:00.000-07:00

Well these are just some of the hundred photos i took on the trip

Breaking Apart

2007-06-11T18:58:00.000-07:00

I haTE being with them.......they go....everywhere!!......but im never part of it!!!!!!......am i their friend or someone they love to throw things at.....nobody understands me!!.....they always go out but at least can ask me right??its a matter of whether they want to.....they are tearing me to bits.............i think its because of her !!wah i want her to leave or at least come and talk to me!!I hate people sympatising with me !i want a life i want my friends back!!!She has no right to come and violate my life.......or maybe i should leave them no i'm toooo close to the other 2......i don't know what to do im hanging with other people but i know i want to be there with them !!!.....i don't know clearly there is no reason for me to be there!!!!!

There's another person all the time call me moron.....of watever sounds familier.....well..i think she should read this.....i hate it and some people around you too hates it tooo...we don't i reapeat don't hate you....we hate the way you call us how would you feel if i called you a moron or something even worse everyday...would you love it????You say i lost your trust but you lost me entirely with that word!!I don't care how you feel about me.....but i wanted to tell you this...i am always ready to say sorry when you do ......(im serious)

2007-06-11T18:33:00.000-07:00

Man i'm sad,

the way she's feeling it makes me sad. I don't know maybe i feel guilty for nt being there for her at times and not knowing how she feels or maybe i just feel like sympatising with her.......well if you read this blog please understand that be happy and i Love you!!!!!!!!!!ALWAYS

A Friend

2007-06-11T01:35:00.000-07:00

Hey my other post got deleted...sigh ...haix...well it was only a few of them so i don't really care that much
OK.....well...i see and have heared that a many of our friendships have gone down the drain due to disagreements and well....misunderstanding....well mine too.....i hope you guys will find this useful for yours!

Accepts you for who you are
Believes in you
Calls you up just to say Hi
Doesen't give up on you
Envision the whole of you
Forgives your Mistakes
Gives unconditionally
Helps you
Invites you over
Just be with you
Keeps you close at heart
Loves you for who you are
Makes a difference in your life
Never judges
Offers Support
Picks you up
Quiets your fears
Raises your Spirit
Says Nice things about you
Tells you the truth when you need to hear.
Understand you
Values You
Walks Beside you
X-plain things you don't understand
Yells when you won't listen
Zaps you back to reality

"Flexible people don't get bend out of shape"

Yipee

2007-06-04T22:43:00.000-07:00

This is my 2nd blog entry and i know i haven't posted for a long time.....well gotta study rite.....well tomolo i very happy going Skating wif netballers!! YAY!!! Love Skating.....Begging Si Han To join us she dun wan come but at least Anna is there.....sigh...haix.....but i'll be wif my cousin........well back to my life.... my life seldom sucks because i have many people to rock it wif their booming attitudes and STyle and how they care for me.........I love them

WeLcOme

2007-05-31T01:02:00.000-07:00

Hey Welcome to my blog,

i just started this blog a few dayz ago and this is my first post so all i can say is have fun, play nice and just love my blog(u better !!)Well if your interested in my other blog which i had before this check out www.desperateatheart.spaces.live.com well..its not much but it has how i felt at all the times so i hope that you can appreciate my feelings at that moment before reading any further i need you to promise me that this will be kept entirely secret no one should know about this..well unless they know about my blog already...and if you have any websites to make my even nicer write it in my tag box........SO PLAY NICE.....HAHA LOL(not really laughing).....~~study play and have fun is all i can say to make life a success