Y ; Thursday, June 28, 2007.
i never thought i'll see again....that never aging smile and that never say die attitude....
but i did i saw her just the other day not soo far.....but no so near.....i left that place feeling content but he destroyed it.....she came and left just like a swaying leaf waiting is forever but she's a friend i need and a friend indeed
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BLACKISH ;
2:23 AM
Y ; .
the need to be beside you has been diverted....
the dream of dreaming has gone......
the time or trust has faded.......
the wish to be near has befallen........
the harsh tears fed to the ground.....
a trickle of tear down the cheek.......
harsh words exchanged and soo hard to keep......
a mirror of lies and tears that couldn't be weaped.....
the waves of betrayal and solitary is kept......
the sway of ignorance is left unspoken......
but lives are changed to suit the world......
some gone away some gone far.......
but nothing is gone forever......
dreams are swapped for a new day to begin......
but all are lost is a friend indeed....
this is a poem i made please comment
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BLACKISH ;
2:04 AM
Y ; Thursday, June 21, 2007.
After so long i write......sigh......just well i'm buzi.......sigh well i gotta do sumthing i write another day a proper blog entry......comment and link me people
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BLACKISH ;
10:48 PM
Y ; Friday, June 15, 2007.
Omg! Today i totally freaked......i was using the laptop in my room....i forgot i plugged in my wireless mouse... i went to play the organ and when i came back my mouse was moving on its own......i was so freaking shock...imagine it moving and clicking songs....i ran out of my room.....i went to my parents room which is next door.....i saw my brother playing with the mouse i was like sooooooo mad i went to my maid and started laughing like crazy.....oh man......how funny it was......and.....today i sweared to myself i wouldn't talk to my brothers as they always got me into trouble and i hate it so i told myself enough is enough your going to play organ go back into your room study while hearing music......and i did it....hope later i won't talk ti my brothers if not i just broke the swear i made to myself.....sigh how difficult can it bee..... i hope.......
*Hearing jesse mccartney.....any nice music tell me Thankz.......*
P.S i think i'm slowly leaving the depressed me.......i hope...
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BLACKISH ;
12:15 AM
Y ; Wednesday, June 13, 2007.
The coming months has taught me many things about friends.......they never last how close they might get they never last.....thats what i was told before but i never believed it till now.....betrayal never seems near until it comes......i trusted so many people and they all let me down one way or another! I taught i should forget the betrayals that came to me in primary school life and trust my friends here more but we can't compromise to anything...we seem to be against each other....watever you suffered i suffered tooo.....i sometimes felt thati had to scream at you to let me have my say when you would go on and on about yourself!........i dunno....i loved your company and the way it was between us watever you do i alwaystold myself i had to give in sometimes but we were way out
There was something you weren't telling me i could sense it.....you wouldn't tell me.....i asked you over again because i cared and didn't want anything to spoil our relationship....but it was over we both knew it.... we were too far apart i knew it you knew it everyone around us knew it.....but some people were blocking our way.....making it hard too move.....they were idiots to interfere.....they knew it yet they wanted to be part of it......
They talked to me about it, i needed someone to talk tooo to spill out all my worried to leave myself...the part that wanted to be with you most behind so that i could carry on life again........but it was hard i knew it she knew it they all knew it ....they did nothing but stood behind the glass wall that seperated me from you....i was depressed with me with you...everything.....the only thing that gave me comfort would me family and cousins..nothing else felt good.....i longed to be at home ...near my CCA.....i wanted to be as far as possible from you
But we both know its going to be hard as we stuck to each other like glue although it was long ago and far from us.....i still know part of me still wants to be near you.......away from a close friend was so difficult.....hey i know i avoided a friend for 1.5 year but i had to talk to you to let you know i still am there to be as close as we were...to tell you nothing could tear us apart i don't understand why.......sigh.....although you still pour to me everything...its just not the same....
You need someone so do I.......but i know you won't be there when i need you.....or willl you........im not the same...different in character and different by heart.......i'm different i learnt my lesson ill never be close to anyone but my family and cousins because i know i can't rely on friends the term given to people who dont stay long.....sigh thankz for reading this blog entry i wrote this because i know i wanted her to know!!!.....im not me no longer you can forget the other part im different
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BLACKISH ;
10:33 PM
Y ; Monday, June 11, 2007.
Well these are just some of the hundred photos i took on the trip
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BLACKISH ;
7:18 PM
Y ; .
I haTE being with them.......they go....everywhere!!......but im never part of it!!!!!!......am i their friend or someone they love to throw things at.....nobody understands me!!.....they always go out but at least can ask me right??its a matter of whether they want to.....they are tearing me to bits.............i think its because of her !!wah i want her to leave or at least come and talk to me!!I hate people sympatising with me !i want a life i want my friends back!!!She has no right to come and violate my life.......or maybe i should leave them no i'm toooo close to the other 2......i don't know what to do im hanging with other people but i know i want to be there with them !!!.....i don't know clearly there is no reason for me to be there!!!!!
There's another person all the time call me moron.....of watever sounds familier.....well..i think she should read this.....i hate it and some people around you too hates it tooo...we don't i reapeat don't hate you....we hate the way you call us how would you feel if i called you a moron or something even worse everyday...would you love it????You say i lost your trust but you lost me entirely with that word!!I don't care how you feel about me.....but i wanted to tell you this...i am always ready to say sorry when you do ......(im serious)
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BLACKISH ;
6:58 PM
Y ; .
Man i'm sad,
the way she's feeling it makes me sad. I don't know maybe i feel guilty for nt being there for her at times and not knowing how she feels or maybe i just feel like sympatising with her.......well if you read this blog please understand that be happy and i Love you!!!!!!!!!!ALWAYS
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BLACKISH ;
6:33 PM
Y ; .
Hey my other post got deleted...sigh ...haix...well it was only a few of them so i don't really care that much
OK.....well...i see and have heared that a many of our friendships have gone down the drain due to disagreements and well....misunderstanding....well mine too.....i hope you guys will find this useful for yours!
Accepts you for who you are
Believes in you
Calls you up just to say Hi
Doesen't give up on you
Envision the whole of you
Forgives your Mistakes
Gives unconditionally
Helps you
Invites you over
Just be with you
Keeps you close at heart
Loves you for who you are
Makes a difference in your life
Never judges
Offers Support
Picks you up
Quiets your fears
Raises your Spirit
Says Nice things about you
Tells you the truth when you need to hear.
Understand you
Values You
Walks Beside you
X-plain things you don't understand
Yells when you won't listen
Zaps you back to reality
"Flexible people don't get bend out of shape"
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BLACKISH ;
1:35 AM
Y ; Monday, June 4, 2007.
This is my 2nd blog entry and i know i haven't posted for a long time.....well gotta study rite.....well tomolo i very happy going Skating wif netballers!! YAY!!! Love Skating.....Begging Si Han To join us she dun wan come but at least Anna is there.....sigh...haix.....but i'll be wif my cousin........well back to my life.... my life seldom sucks because i have many people to rock it wif their booming attitudes and STyle and how they care for me.........I love them
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BLACKISH ;
10:43 PM